Ah it’s been a few days. I wrote for 31 minutes today, typing up some previously handwritten scenes.

This particular scene is hard, because this is when the main character still making hurtful, and wrong choices. This one came at an extra cost, and will re-surface later.

These scenes are hard to write, because the character wasn’t walking in his true self here, but just kept piling on bad choice & sin on top of other bad choices and sin. All in an attempt to hide and run from something and someone he thought he’d lost.

I discuss that a bit in this scene – how they’re both scared – scared of feeling. But she is willing to take that risk, until she discovers the truth.

Poe will be a more prominent character in book 2, a painful reminder. She’s a woman trying to find her way, and Jack coming back into her life (not romantically), just makes it harder. She has a lot of unresolved anger and hurt – a good chunk of it directed at herself. Blaming herself for what happened, that she should’ve been more careful. Neither one of them counted the cost, and how do they move forward from here? How do their families heal? Can they?

Ahhh… these are hard scenes to write. Because these are the broken, hurting people, not seeking God, not living for Him, and choosing the wrong things. The album by Relient K “Two Lefts Don’t Make a Right… but Three Do” comes to my mind.

I feel like I keep getting stretched by writing these characters. It also makes me realize things about myself, buried things, often times. That once come to the surface, I can’t bury them again — I have to deal with them.  And that’s a good thing. 🙂

How does God use your writing to help heal you?

I know if He uses it to heal me, then He will use it to help heal others!

Going forward in God’s Light!
~K

editing: coming back to say, as I had just clicked “post”, this song came to me. It’s one of my favorites by Relient K, and on one of my favorite albums of theirs; “Forget and Not Slow Down” (which I think was a perfect follow up and almost like a part B to “Mmm Hmm”). 

I listened to this song just now, and I thought oh my word: This is a perfect song for Jack, and it’s such a moving & beautiful song. It hits deep for me, in a relatable way, and I hope it moves you too <3

This is The End (If You Want It) by Relient K: