It was a struggle to write the scene where Jack tells Holly about how he had a drug problem. I chose to write this scene from Holly’s POV, as I felt it needed to be done from her view, not Jack’s.

I know it was hard for me to write, because I can relate to Holly’s character here, her emotions and feelings. Many of them written after my own feelings & emotions. It was a raw hurt, I felt while writing them, and I realized this feelings & emotions, may be almost 20 years old, but they felt fresh. And I believe it’s because I’ve never truly dealt with/processed them.

I love how God is using this book to help me heal, and show me things as I go — even though sometimes it is very painful. I know the painful part is because I never really dealt with the feelings/emotions.

And I heard today, we numb ourselves to keep from dealing/facing the hurt or issues. That leapt out at me, and hit me. How true it is! And I knew the timing wasn’t a coincidence.

I’m still not done with the scene, feeling the raw hurt, made me want to walk away from it. But I’m going to keep going, on the other side is healing.

How has art or writing helped you heal? Was it yours or someone else?(or both: because God has used both ways with me)